Back, bring it back

The weekend is over..it’s Sunday evening…what can i say? How can i briefly describe how it was? Great…ok, it was a light word…it was an amazing weekend. There were a lot of things that have contributed for it to be as it was but the main contribution wasn’t a thing or an action… Not getting into details . Spending a boring day at the village is not that interesting so don’t really have details of today…what about yesterday? Been sitting all day long near the comp, oh well besides those 15 minutes i have spent going to shop something for the lunch for my mum…messenger until 1am. And then text messaging…does that sound like this that fun? Use your imagination
Tomorrow is the national day and i so like it when it is some of the days between Monday and Friday because we get is as free from school, even if we wouldn’t get it i would be free because of my holiday to get ready for the cambridge so not worrying about it…but mainly because no Internet probably the upcoming few days, besides maybe one or two hours to relax a bit and share ideas with friends .
Ok i think i go and take some rest…headache is killing me for some reason

Listening to : The Scorpions – Love of My Life

Tie a black rose into your hair…

Life is like a boat in a bottle
Try to sail you can’t with no air
Day by day it only gets harder
Try to scream but nobody cares
Through the glass you see the same faces
Hear their voices fade like a drum
When your life’s a boat in a bottle
You’re surrounded, drifting alone
(…)
Far away we wait for each other
I’m still on that road to nowhere
Kiss yourself for me in the mirror
Tie a black rose into your hair

Yesterday was a quite nice day if we say so…and count that it was also a b-day of a member of the rasmus…and that some of the fans had the opportunity to talk to the band too as they spent 5 hours online on Habbo hotel, well initially was supposed to be there 3 members of the band but as the drummer (who is actually my fav member) was ill and the guitar player was at the moment in Singapore. It was nice this way too,can’t really complain but bloodily unorganized I said some of the fans because most of them who had some nice questions for the band (nice i mean related to music and stuff) couldn’t get in the room only those groupies who haven’t got anything else to say that “i love you… ” and i’m asking now how the guys have felt in those moments when they saw those and they were waiting for some questions about music it gave me a headache to read those things so as a consequence i do not really dare to think about how the band members have felt spending 5 hours like those .
Anyways, it was nice and ok the whole day despite i would have had a million things to do but did only a few of them. Priority what matters always .
What about today, hmm, what should i say…one day closer to elections…hate them so i don’t even think of going to vote despite everyone does . Just stupid things… i was at the beginning of summer and that was enough for me for the upcoming 4 years .
Despite was my last day of school, oh well, until the 11th of December, was a quite busy one with a semester paper which i think was ok and i hope it won’t be as the last year when i wrote almost 3 pages and got a 20% .Nevermatter, hoped to have maths lessons in the afternoon and have a nice chat also with my teacher but unfortunately she had something else to do so discussions for only next friday . Until then i have to learn and Tuesday take my driving theory cause now i also have a book for those parts for which i didn’t until now so now there is no excuse. And Next Sunday the big day for the speaking exams of the Cambridge. Seriously i have no clue of how i will practice for that but hopefully i will manage somehow. “Make believe when you close your eyes” .
I know that this time the title haven’t really got any relation with the content but i was just singing along the song Ten Black Roses from The Rasmus and this one is still in my mind…had to do something with it … and also thought of beginning upcoming entries with a quote from someone or from a song … seems like a good idea for me .

Listening to : The Rasmus – Livin’ In A World Without You [Acustic]

Think only what you do want

Let me talk to you about a thing I’ve been studing for some time… Our thoughts — specially the thoughts intensely charged by emotion — can have a powerfull effect in our lifes.So just try that: accept the condition of pass the exam to go to the gig and cultivate this feeling/emotion that you already have of wanting to attend the gig. Imagine and feel you there in the gig as if you already have it done.Important: you must not think in what you don’t want. You must think only what you do want.The wrong way, that works against you: “I don’t wanna fail”.The rigth way: “I will succed”.It’s a fact that our brain does not interprets the negative sentence.If you keep trying to “convince” youself with “i will pass”, it can even have a bad effect coz your brain already convinced of the past fails will come with lots of negative thoughts to counter your positive thoughts.So, don’t insist in this hard way. Just cultivate the good thought of beeing in the gig you want.
If you want badly, bloodly, extremely something, and you only think of that… it’s almost like as if your thoughts could bend reality to your favor.

It’s not a quote from someone famous for gathering Nobel-prizes and someone you meet everyday.It was said by a friend of mine who is very clever and honestly he made me think that maybe it’s worth getting some hopes up, if even not everything and thinking 100% that i will be there, but at least to think that i have high chances. Having someone telling me this made me feel a bit better after some days like the ones that just have passed by. Being almost all day long busy with something and experiencing what does that mean when you barely have some time to talk with your friends even on messenger, despite you are online. And the next day they keep asking what was with you nothing just the time…if only sometimes i could stop the time or make a day a few hours longer to be able to relax, to make everything i should, in a simple way : to have time for everything i wish. Sadly that’s not possible nowadays…in a world we live in. Having to run after people who are afraid of the reality and after stealing someone’s goods giving it back without any conclusion they choose to be in silence and cause the others to be afraid of going home and tell their parents their phone have been stolen. What’s is with the world? And maybe still it’s getting worse and worse? We’ll see…

Listening to : Sunrise Avenue – Heal me

Waiting is worse than ever before…

Not that waiting would be a so exciting thing but newly it got even worse and even boring. Just today it got in my mind that my mum can’t make a compromise with me . Why? Because she said she will only let me go to the The Rasmus gig only if i pass my cambridge exams… oh well the results of the exams will be made public only at the end of february or beginning of March, hmmm seems that things are getting better and better. But before i say it and a new world will crush in me i must say that still i have the driving exam to pass to be able to go to that gig. Many people keep telling me that the fact that the “prize” of learning for the driving exam should motivate me to learn more and to pass it. Well i have to say that in a way it does, because not only that i really want to own a driving licence but the feeling of going to the gig is much stronger. Still it’s hard to learn something you haven’t got material for, i meani have no book (yet) to learn how the car works and stuff…but i hope soon i will have cause i need that stupid 22 points at the exam until january so i can be sure of going and not to worry in the last minute that “omg i still haven’t passed the exam and the concert is coming and i so want to go”.
Waiting and waiting Santa Claus too…like a little 5 year old girl. But this is for real, we all are some kids, this is just hidden inside of us, cause now who does not wait Santa? Kids wait cause brings gifts, teenies because of the sweets and adults to see their child happy that they got presents, oh well the adults case is something more delicate cause depends who and how material is .

Listening to : The Rasmus – Dancer In The Dark

Event number 842513

Making a day better is not easy but either it’s hard. Making a great day (made by someone like that) a bad one is very easy. It’s always easier to ruin something than to make it.  Waking up in the morning, switching on the computer and after getting online on MySpace. That’s just a daily routine. As i have sent yesterday a message to TR asking them if their gig in bucharest on the 17th of february in Hard Rock Cafe will be acustic or a normal one , i thought of checking if it had been at least read. I saw there instead of Sent or Read… Replied. I was like huh? how come that i haven’t seen any email notification that i have got a message on myspace from someone. But after i switched to the Inbox there there was the message and exactely in that moment i have got the email notification of the message too, so the one member answering was still online. It was a nice feeling, and yes it’s going to be a normal gig as i have wished for it…not that i don’t like acustic gigs but there is less energy in them and i want to give out every anger i have on a great gig then…of course if i’m going to be there. This is still a big mystery…Parents want to let me go only if i get my driving licence and pass cambridge exams…why i always have to be involved in compromisses when it’s something about going somewhere? Damn it, it’s going to be me who will pay the tickets and if they want the road to bucharest too…they don’t even have to move a finger for that day… I do everything they ask and they don’t want to do this for me once in a year or…once in 2 years in case of this. Like it would be a so great thing…i understand that they didn’t let me go to Vienna for a gig cause it’s 2000km away…but this is just 300km…and i’m inside the country borders with friends and the people they know…
i have a feeling i won’t be attending that gig…even if cambridge will be ok, still there is the other one that will keep me back and that i will not manage to do…blaming even the moment when i asked for doing it
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Listening to : Negative – Angels won’t lie